Ridiculous

So yesterday I ate like I had never seen food before.  I have no idea the number of calories I consumed.  I'm afraid to know!  I felt so guilty.  It took hours to fall asleep.  I just wanted to purge.  I didn't, but it was hard.  It was all I could think about!  I even had dreams I was one of those people who was so big they had to be cut out of their house!!!!  Woke up and took my thermogenic weight loss pills and proceeded to exercise.  I continue to do random exercises while I do everything else.  I haven't eaten anything today and I feel better about myself.  Hoping and praying I can keep my willpower up!